Pulltab to Can

The house seems so empty when brother isn't around.

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 03:42:42 GMT

I knew I shouldn't have asked.

Should've seen this coming.

I should have been able to see the signs.

I'm sorry Kamiokun. I'm sorry Shinjikun.

About the other day...

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 05:47:11 GMT

The meeting with Kamio didn't go quite as well as I though it would...I ended up saying too much and doing too much. I'll never forget what happened though. It's not anybody's fault though. I'll never stop feeling this way I don't think. I'll treasure this. It's the only thing I can do. Maybe I'll contact Shinji tomorrow and ask him about what's been going on. They're best friends, so he should know something.

Well, something good did happen afterwards though. I ran into Momoshiro again. Well he tells me to call him Momochan which is sort of cute. He treated me to sushi at this really nice place called Kawamura Sushi and the person who worked there was very nice. Kawamura-san. His dad owns the restaurant and he's also part of Cap to Bin. Very hard working. But yea, Momochan treated me to sushi and it was very sweet of him. It's fun spending time with him. We're going to meet up again another time. I wonder how that will go.

(Before the Kamio incident) journal-entry

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 07:02:17 GMT

The RI.Sing managers contacted me today for a meeting. That was one of the most nerve-wracking experiences of my life. I thought they were going to fire me even though I was only just promoted to this job. Well I think I did alright in the interview. There's not much I can say or do about it now anyway. I need to pull pulltab to can together but it seems so increasingly hard as my first job. And that Akutsu is really hard to pull together.

On lighter news, I'm going to visit Kamio later with the news of my new job. I hope he takes the news in a good way. I don't want him to think I'm trying to follow him or anything but I had really missed him. Shinji, Kamio and the rest of the boys. It doesn't feel right without them. My brother has been busy a lot so I haven't been able to talk much with him either. Oh well.

Oh and when I was digging around my computer I found a few old pictures from last year that I scanned.

I can't remember what we were watching. But it was something really intense. Big brother took a picture of me and Kamio while we were really into the match. He gave it to me later. I don't know if Kamio even knew this photo was taken.

And then when brother gave me the camera later I took this picture. It seemed really cute when I took it but I never managed to figure out why they were like that. Maybe they were arguing or something.

My first day.

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 02:06:10 GMT

I met that much talked about Akutsu. He isn't that hard to deal with if you know your basic background. I managed to deal with him. Although the amount of work I'm left with now doesn't make me happy. What has he been up to with the weeks of promo time that he's had to work on the band? He hasn't done any imaging, cover concept photos or even gotten the boys together for a rehearsal. How am I going to do that with just a few days up my sleeve?

RI.Sing Inc really shoudl ehar about this but, for now I need Akutsu on my side. I'll deal with it. I'm sure I can deal with it. If I can rise up in RI.Sing to this job in a few weeks, I'm sure I can pull through this.

I hope Kamiokun and Shinjikun are going to be happy to see me in this position.

(no offense to the akutsu-mun...it's just the way Ann would react to seeing the pile of work.)